How much more

Had a wonderful time at the Beth Moore conference this weekend. It was what I needed. As we learned this weekend the phrase "How much more?" Can take on so many many meanings, both good and bad. So often I have asked myself "How much more can I take?" "How much more do I have to do?" and "How much more is left of my marriage?" But this weekend we turned it around to "How much more is there to ardent prayer?", "How much more could this day really bring?", "How much more could forgiveness heal my soul?", "How much more could I have if I let go?", "How much more could be won from this war?", How much more is my heavenly Father than my friend?", and finally "How much more does my father have in store for me?'.
What I hope to apply to my life is "How much more could this day really bring as I live in the present and not in the past or in the future. I can not worry about what may happen, will my husband leave me, for today he is my husband and for that I will give thanks. Tomorrow is in God's hands. And then How much more could I have if I let go? I must let go of my desire to save this marriage at all costs. I must give both my husband and this marriage to God, and trust Him to do what is best for me. I must trust His love, grace and mercy. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, and it still hurts to think about so I am asking God to fill me with His Spirit in ways that will take away the hurt, the sickness I feel inside. Either I take God at His word or I don't, but living where I am now, in the state that I am now is not working, for I have no control over my husband and what he will do. I must choose everyday, every moment to give this to my Abba Father in heaven. Please pray for quest to give this to God and for His filling.